Specter

Specter I am a specter of my former self Holding joy at arm’s length Often further I do not understand it When there is disease and poverty and hate and death Dealt out with pain so harsh it steals one’s breath Yet maybe joy is how I deal with it all Laughing amongst the killing…

Five

Five I don’t have time to play these games This phantom world has been rearranged Now everything is so very out of place Even in the mirror as I see my face I do not recognize this one I see I look to the sun, the moon, the skies To anything where I am mesmerized…

The Moment

The Moment There is a great heaviness on the carousel This going round and round and round and round The music of the grand calliope Off keyed and somber now After years of rust and rain This necessary thing called pain Supposedly a seed that grows in the furrows Into some sort of beautifully lined…

answer

answer so often we want answers in black and white yet that is not how they come that isn’t how it was designed sure it makes it so much simpler because things are so much simpler when they’re dead so our answers come not at all or when they do they’re red and yellow still…

Time

What time is it What is the date I’ve wasted time Now I’m so irate It really, really seems to me I’ve lost our sense of poetry I’ve constrained myself With this thing called time I’ve lost the rhythm I’ve lost the rhyme In all the hurry I’m sad to see I’ve lost my touch…

Resting in the Embers

Resting in the Embers I’ve grown tired of this introspection This circumspection A rambling on about emptiness Seeing everything Feeling nothing Putting it all down on paper Wanting to crinkle it all up Throw it all away Yet the digital age holds on to everything So it seems I can’t let anything go myself Thoughts…

The Void

The Void It is strange to think that emptiness Can carry such significant weight How it can have such a powerful impact Dropping boulders so heavy and great They leave my heart a crushed up mess Like grapes trodden on the ground My heart it yearns for any sound That would bring some purpose, some meaning…

My Focus

My Focus Like the great and mighty redwoods grow As they go higher, the weeds below Have not one prayer for their continued existence So it is with me; in firm persistence I will focus on the light Not spending energy on what against me fights But rather spend all on reaching  what’s above me,…

Hope

I see a land of blue skies White clouds Just beyond the lands of smoke and plume, beyond fire and lava Steam and flame This place where no one knows my name Nor does anyone care to know it I see a land beyond Yet These ancient trees stand at the entry They speak with…

The Dance

The Dance I often get so frustrated That there isn’t an infinite amount of poetry in me I know I need to write it I can feel it in my chest I can feel it even Deeper than that I can feel it in the places where spirit and soul do flow Yet there is…

Grief Bomb (Diffused)

The Grief Bomb (Diffused) Got a grief bomb going off in my chest today The heaviness is remarkable I guess one cannot know love Unless one gets to know pain They seem to be inseparable My head hurts too much to think about it My heart hurts too much to move on So I guess…

Blue Lands

Blue Lands I’m not used to this enduring cold This absence of heat This growing old I’m not used to this sadness But yet I am familiar I’ve let it rob me Of being a man And even greater still I’ve let it rob me of being a human So like C3PO I stagger about…